Monday, July 19, 2010
Crazy Card!
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Jonathun's Eye Twitched
Jonathun sat on the crumpled bed he hadn't gotten out for the past four days. He just sat there, looking out of the window, his eye twitched. The window was covered with grime and God knows what, and please note, not from the outside but from the inside thanks to the fact that Jonathun had never lifted a finger to keep his room clean. “It's a rented house, who cares??”, he justified. Every time the superintendent of the building knocked on his door and screamed about the foul odour Jonathun lay dead and just thought him away.
He hated the super, he was a dick who only cared about the rent and all Jonathun had to do was making him think he had paid up every month. In fact, there were times when he thought the super had been a little too cantankerous, he would make him walk the hallways with his pants down and pee on himself. It was easy, all Jonathun had to do was think.
Still looking out the window, his eye twitched. He wished he could think the world into liking him. He wished he hadn't left home that night. He had never been able to “Think” for his mother; she somehow always knew. He had been caught with his lies and a whole series of them. And then, he just left...
Friday, July 31, 2009
On a Cold Night
He sat here on his swivel chair that was obviously too small for him. He sat thinking about all the miserable vermin. All those pseudo mother fuckers who didn't have a back bone of their own. He looked around the room. The same room he had occupied for the past forty years with that picture of the Virgin Mary looking down at him. And now, on this cold night he wondered how he had come to be this flaccid bastard who just sat at home.
“I am turning into one of those idiots. Those country bumpkin kinds.”
This room was where his life had unfolded in front of his eyes. His first steps, his first joint, his first kiss, his first fuck...and now he felt like too much had happened here.
“I've been here too long...”
He took a long drag of his cigarette.
She plonked herself on her bed in the adjacent room. Unlike her father next door, she had been here only some fourteen years. She wanted to leave. She felt like she had had too much of this place. She wanted to run away, get away from that old woman who had tried hard for the past eight years to replace her mother.
“It's impossible. Why does she think she can replace my mother? She deserved to die, not mother.”
The thought tormented her soul and for years she planned her revenge. She planned and conspired to get that old woman for surviving the car accident.
She felt like she had waited far to long. But, what option did she have? A small seven year old hands couldn't have ripped the old woman's esophagus out with a fork even if she had tried with all her might. But now she was seven years stronger and the old woman was seven years weaker.
She would take advantage of the situation and tonight would be perfect..if only Johnny wasn't at home tonight sitting and smoking next door...
It was an unusually cold night. Across the hall, the chair creaked as she adjusted her shawl with fingers that could just about manage to hold the ends. She struggled slowly, to make sure she felt just warm enough. This was her favourite spot in the house, right next to the window. She looked out but the cold had fogged up the window. She sighed and almost like a reaction the lamp next to her chair flickered.
“I must ask Johnny to fix up the window” , she made a mental note to herself.
But tonight was just so cold, she didn't want to move from her spot. The chair had the perfect depression and the springs creaked as she moved slowly, readjusting her shawl.
Four cigarettes later, the only thought that came into his mind was his daughter. She worried him. She was coming of age and the crazed look he saw in her eyes sometimes scared him. He knew what she was thinking. She was smarter than your average joe, but he was her father and he knew.
“ How do these thoughts even come into her head. She blames her grandmother for her mothers death. How can she expect me to sit here and watch.. How dare she think I will watch....”
“Damn power cuts!!”
She smiled. It had just gotten colder, with the 100watt bulb off..or so it seemed.
The fork glistened in her hand. The was a sinister energy that she could feel. But she did nothing, not yet. But, she knew it had to be done.
“It's now or never”, she giggled.
There was evil and it was around. This would be the last thing she did if she had to.
She had a purpose. She got up and made her way to the door.
She never quite got out...
He smoked his last cigarette as he quietly slipped out from the back door.
Mother would be safe now. She would be alright.
He had lived in that house far to long and tonight was perfect to just leave. He walked down the road humming softly, threw that piece of silverware and continued to walk without looking back.
“Fuckers...All of 'em..”
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Illustrating Postcards
Be Happy?
Thursday, July 24, 2008
She and Me
I am my biggest fear
I am my biggest enemy
There are these pits of darkness
That I see
They may blur my vision
But beyond it, seems peace
Sweet lilies are meaning less
There’s firmness in her voice
There’s a distance
Perhaps it’s better that way
There she is again, talking to me
She says, softly… so bare.
I almost don’t hear her
She says, “Don’t right this
This is bullshit
You know you should write something else”
She judges every thought that flows
The music is amazing,
I am on the streets of a magical city, alone
There she is.. I smell her
Inside me, festering
She’s up to something
I am on a high, but I feel the hair entangle my thoughts
Brilliant light in the dark, cold night
A hand reaches out,
“What are you doing here?”
I stop! Is she right?
The air is thick
I am breathing… of course I am!
She is breathing!
I’m lost and there’s no one to turn except her
She is with me
So often!
I think again
What am I doing here?
I should probably jump
Jump! Right into the beautiful river
Unleash me from myself
But how can this be,
I dreamed of being on a boat,
On a starry night
A boy kissing me… softly
Yes, a fantasy it maybe…
But she said “No”
I am being silly aren’t I?
To show myself,
To not get judged
But, does it matter?
The boat disappears
The boy too..
They all turn into mist
Here I am back again,
Where I had started
Just as I was before
And the only one with me
She.
It seems like forever ago
But she remains
A stone etched…
Friday, July 18, 2008
The Elephant and his Mrs.
She was young and ambitious,
She was interested in a career.
She then decided that’s not what she wanted
Not what she wanted, after all.
She was 24 and marriage was on the cards
She was Neela.
26 and earning a sizeable amount
His mother wanted to become a grandmother soon
He was in no hurry, but didn’t mind the idea.
He was Uday.
Then there was the “Matrimonial Man”
In his little room, filled with leather bound registers,
He held the key to a “hopefuls” life
A match made in heaven perhaps?
The search is on for your better half
Matunga, Mumbai
An actor and doctor rejected
Perhaps too soon, parents displeasure
Who would the next idiot be?
Would he match up?
As the clock ticked, it was apparent
The wait would be over soon,
Another person to judge
Neela awaited his arrival.
Cooked to perfection,
The prawns
Simmer and boil
The curry
With every step, they were closer
With every step, he got closer to the aroma.
And before he knew it
Uday was at the door of the Joshi household
Neela saw him
Whispers into her mother’s ear
“The Little Baby Elephant”
Usual banter.
The knowing of common friends and relatives
The unusual silence amongst the parents
The children then get sent away to “talk”
But before they talk,
Neela see’s all of him, this time
There’s one bigger problem, it’s more than just Elephant fat
It’s called a Fly
Unfortunately after noticing the Fly
There was just one thought in her mind,
Should I tell him? Embarrass him?
Deciding against it, the conversation “charm”
They spoke, one hour.
The Gokhalay’s were about to leave.
She had been waiting for this moment
Her little test
She said very sweetly
Everyone heard
“Uday, your fly is open.”
Her parents were a little shocked
Uday’s mother was mortified,
Her son was looking to get married
And he couldn't wear his pants.
Pretence
Six people standing at the doorway
And everyone acted as if no one heard a thing
He didn’t do a thing about it,
Till the door was shut behind him
She had her little test
Now if he called, she would
Probably
say Yes
If it meant travelling all over the world
On a ship, even after being scared of water
She felt she was ready to do it.
He did call
The Fly left him undeterred
Lunches Dinners Movies
They got to know one another
14th October, 1977
Marriage Registrar, Mumbai
The parents
Bride and Groom
Two signatures.
Lunch was served.

